Monday, April 16, 2012

SAHM ..what did I get myself into?

Finally! After all the years of working 9am-6pm. All those years of working weekends. All those years of other people watching my kids grow up and learn new things everyday. FINALLY. I am a Stay At Home Mom. I get to spend all day with the two kids I have left that aren't in school yet. Well.. one of them actually right now, the other is in Texas visiting his father. But still. I'm home! All day! With my youngest son, 3 years old. Ok, so now what?


We get up in the morning and get big brother and sister off to school. Usually we stop and get a doughnut and a coffee (chocolate milk for him, haha) on the way home. We cuddle on the couch for a bit while I check email and he watches cartoons. I do some laundry, straighten up the house a little. Lunch time comes and we eat. Some days we'll walk to the park and play. I'd say we go visit friends but we're new in town and haven't really met very many people yet.






Brother and sister come home from school and do homework, go play outside, etc. Daddy Dearest comes home. I cook dinner, serve dinner, clean up dinner. We all watch a little tv in the evenings, then its showers, pajamas, bedtimes..


Every. Single. Day. Don't get me wrong, I want to stay home. I love this time with my children. But after working all day everyday for the past several years, I'm having a hard time adjusting. I feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm not helping DD to pay the bills. I don't like having to ask for money for things. I'm used to having my own! I know he doesn't care, but it still bothers me. Aside from not having my own money though, I just feel kinda useless. I know, years from now, I'm going to look back and be so damned happy that I was able to stay home and raise my children. I know that. But this is very hard work!


I was never this tired when I had a full time "real job". While I won't lie and say I'm loving every single minute of this new life.. I will say that I am positive it was the right decision and hopefully with time I will be able to adjust and adapt and begin loving every second without wanting to stab someone with a fork. 






I follow several other SAHM's on facebook and on their blogs. I'd love to hear some feedback. How do you deal? Did you work outside the home before? Do you regret anything?

2 comments:

  1. I am a single stay at home mom. I pay my bills by watching other children during the weekdays. Currently I have my own two ( ages 5 and 3) and watch a 6 month old baby boy, a 2 yr old boy and a 3 yr old girl. Since they are all fairly close in age it makes my life a bit easier, but the baby takes alot of my attention. To help me get through the day I have a very strict schedule that the kids all know and all accept as their daily routine. It's breakfast, Mickey mouse, story time, craft time, free play, lunch, nap(all of them go down by 12:30 and sleep 2 to 3 hours) I use nap time to get done chores. As they wake up they get snacks and free play til 4, we watch a movie or head outside for a 1/2 hour. 4:30 I get dinner started and get the kids ready for pick ups. My kids eat dinner once the others have left, then it's tv/free time, showers, story, bedtime. Then of course it's Mommy has a margarita time and catch up on my shows.
    I find it is so much easier to tolerate the everyday same old same old by mixing it up on the weekends. I also don't have my kids everyother weekend so I feel like I get a vacation every two weeks! :)

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  2. I have all of my kids, EVERY weekend lol. My oldest two's dad is a POS and hasn't bothered to attempt to see his kids in years or call them. My middle one is currently in Texas visiting his dad and grandparents and my youngest one's dad is my soon to be husband. I'm really thinking of starting to watch a couple of kids.. I've thought about it for quite a few years actually, just never made the step to do it. Summer is coming and I know alot of mom's are gonna need somewhere for their little ones to go when school's out. Hmm...

    P.S. Thank you for visiting my blog! <3

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